Monday, April 26, 2010 ' 10:17 PM
As I sit here thinking of a way to express myself, trying to find the right words to say to justify how I feel about you, my eyes wander around my room...
The green metallic can. The shirt. The camera, which was totally named after you. The pencil. The wallpaper on my lappy. The wallpaper on my phone. The jacket you picked out for me, once upon a time. The only chat window open on my desktop. My jacket. The letter titled 'Read Me'. The dry wet-tissues. Your face on my screen. Your voice from my speakers.
Simply put, everywhere I turn in my room, I see some part of you that's grown onto me. And it's like that because I want it that way. I want you to be a part of even the most mundane parts of my life.
You're the first person I wanna look at when I wake up in the morning, and the only one I want to kiss goodnight. Every morning, and every night.
I don't think I can find the words to justify this. So let's put it in a song...
It's early in the morning
And my heart is really lonely
Just thinkin bout you baby
Got me twisted in the head
And I don't know how to take it
But it's driving me so crazy
I don't know if its right
I'm tossin turning in my bed
It's 5 o'clock in the morning
And I still can't sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me weak...
I'm feeling hopeless in my home
I dont know what to do but I think I'm in love...
The first month of forever. I love you.
Hey. Life sucks without you. I miss you. Of course I miss you. I knew that I would, but it's not like a "Hey, we had some great times." you know, "Keep in touch." kind of thing. It was more like "I can't eat, I can't sleep, I forget what it feels like to laugh" kind of thing. And I really think that when you left, you took my heart with you...
